Fed-up with FAT!!!

*****UPDATE 7/17/11*****  Yea, I'm gonna have to get back to ya on this 1, hahaha!!  I haven't had time to diet...  fast food is just that, FAST, and unfortunately not diet friendly!!!

So, I have been struggling with my weight since I had kids.  However, it didn't really bother me too bad...  wasn't skinny, but I grew to like the way I looked.  I was thick, and after a while that began to stick...  I've never been very self concious anyways...  I was in pageants for 16 years, so in my mind I looked good no matter what!!!  Well, Since I started this job in August, I have gained 40 freakin pounds..  and I'm 4 sizes bigger than I was..  I'm flippin fat!!!  And, I'm totally NOT comfortable with this!!!  The stress of work is taking its toll on me!!! 

Well, I'm fed up with this!!!  Nothing I own fits me anymore!!!!  My ass is getting so wide that its taking the length outta my work pants and I look like I'm fat &&&& waiting on a flood!!  I'm so over this shit!!!  I WILL LOOSE THIS!!!  I went and got me sum pills today, and I got a Just Dance game for the Wii...  I hate to exercisem but I love to dance so that will hopefully get me with the exercise part...  Maybe if I stick to that, I'll invest in a wii fit!!!  I am so pissed!!  This is COMING OFF!!!  One way or another it will come off!!! 

I'll keep you posted!!!  And, I know this isn't anything to do with my usual posts, but I had to vent!!!

Live, Laugh, Love

                Live, Laugh, Love…


                                                                       Try to Forgive, but


                                                                             Never Forget!



                                                               Sing as if no one is listening,



                                                            Work as if everyone is watching,
                                                           Make love like you need the money,


                                                                                         &
                                             Dance Like no one is going to put it on YouTube!

Busy Busy....

I haven't had the chance to Blog in a REALLY long time!!  I've been working my butt off!!  As a matter of fact, I'm @ wrk now...  Shhhhhh, don't tell any1 ;)  So, I started this job on 8/23, and I absolutely love it!!  I am working as a Unit Secrtary in an ICU unit at a local hospital.  Getting my feet wet while I am still in school so that all I have to do is move up, not look for a job =)  So, anyways...  I did a job spell that was amazing the night before my interview...  and honestly I didn't have a chance in getting this job in my opinion.  There were 150 applicants, and they picked me =)  I believe that it was the goddess that intervened and got me this job =)  I will post the spell that I wrote for it when I get the tme to actually do something other than work!!  I bought a new TV with this paycheck...  It felt so good to have money to spend!!!  After being out of work for 2 1/2 years, it feels soooo damn good to be back in the job world.  I miss the kids, but I am loving my new job.  Even though I am so freakin tired, lol!!  I get up @ 5am every morning, get to wrk by 6:15...  I get off @ 7, make it home by 7:45, eat, take a bath, and go my tired ass to bed!!!  Everything is suffering, from my laundry to my facebook, hahahaha...  But, my family is going stronger beause they are not lacking as much as before I got my job.  You know, I always said that I would not support my dead-beat husband again, but you know what...  I refuse to be broke and I refuse to be alone, so it is what it is...  You live and you learn, and you love, even if you do know better than to love the person that is terrible for you.  But, I would rather have a warm body in my bed, and my children with their daddy then nothing at all...  I guess I can just keep wishing and hoping that he will get a job and grow the fuck up!!  He uses his health as an excuse, but get serious!!  My daddy is in horrible health and works his ass off everyday, and is 30yrs older than my husband...  I wish he would learn from example from watching my daddy, but its too far gone!!  Ugh, this was supposed to be a good blog about hw wonderful my new job is and it ended up being a rant about a dead-bead husband.  Oh well, lol!!  At least I feel better about his pos ass now that I got that off my chest!!  Apparently it needed to be said, lol!!!  Peace out ppls....  Promise I'll post that spell when I get the chance =)

Down with the Sickness

Ugh, I'm freakin sick!!  Wish someone would just shoot me and take me outta my misery!!  I been in the bed for 2 days!!!  I feel like I have the freakin flu!!  I'm miserable!!  This sux big floppy donkey dicks!!!!

My Lammas

I had a very small ceremony...  I set up my altar and gave thanks for the fruits of the earth, etc...  I didnt do anything big, just a little simple thank you to Lugh!  My night was spent classwrk for 3 classes that was due at midnight, and looking for my squirrel.  My kids left the door open and she got out!!  I'm so sad =(  I miss her like crazy!!  I dont know what i'm going to do!!  I hope she made sum squirrellie friends and didnt have to sleep alone last night =(

A lil Poetry for Lammas =)

Tis the witching hour of night,



Or bed is the moon and bright,


And the stars they glisten, glisten,


Seeming with bright eyes to listen


For what listen they?
--John Keats (1795 - 1821)
 

Lammas... SImple Ritual I found =) Thx Mrs B.

Lammas Is tommorrow.  I am up late writing my ritual!!  While I was just doing some research for new ideas to incorporate I came across this and thought I would share:


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A Simple Lammas Ritual for the Busy Domestic Witch


Wednesday, July 29, 2009


By Mrs. B


For many domestic witches, finding time to celebrate the sabbats can be a challenge, even in the summer months. Between keeping the little witchlets busy and out of trouble, or schlepping them to camps and activities, or just trying to find the time to do all the usual things we have to do between work and home, finding time to fit in a sabbat ritual can be tough!


Many times we forget that honoring the seasons and deity do not have to be a huge celebration, full of casting circles, fancy rituals and huge feasts. Of course the sabbats can be one or all of those things, but do they have to be? Of course not. Honoring the change of season can be as simple as a candle lit, a prayer said, and a toast made. Just 5 minutes out of your day to reconnect with your beliefs, your deity and the earth.


For Lammas, I created a simple ritual that can be done alone or with family or friends, with minimal fuss, and in just a few minutes. Of course, feel free to use and/or change the words for your own private use.


Supplies you’ll need:


Bread (Home baked, store bought, heck, a cookie will do in a pinch)


Wine (or beer, mead, fruit juice – you know you have a juice box in there somewhere!)


A candle (A summer color is appropriate: gold or yellow, though white always works. Also appropriate? Anything that smells like baked goods – cinnamon, sugar cookie, etc..)


Optional: anything season that you’d like to set out, such as summer flowers, things harvested from your garden, a corn dolly, etc.), an appropriate incense.


Find a quiet place to sit for a moment, or gather around your table if sharing the ritual with others. Have your bread, wine and candle in front of you (don’t forget something to light the candle with). Take a quick moment to think about what Lammas means to you, and what it has meant to those who have followed the season through times past. It’s the first harvest, time to offer bread in thanks for the prosperity of the crops.
Light your candle (and incense if you are using it). Take a bite of the bread and a sip of the wine.


Say these words (or others, as you like):


On this first day of August, I light a candle to celebrate the harvest.


As the wheel of the year turns and the days start to grow shorter, I honor the Lord and Lady (or the seasons, or your specific deity) and thank them for the blessings and prosperity they have brought to me this year.


I honor those who came before me, and all things living on this earth.


Eat more of the bread, drink more of the wine, being sure to save the last bits as a sacrifice to the earth. Later pour them outside, in your garden, under a tree or into a potted plant.


If you have the time, sit for a few minutes and meditate before snuffing the candle. As you go about your day, keep negative thoughts at bay and try to mentally tally all the wonderful things that have come into your life this year.


Have a wonderful Lammas, however you choose to celebrate!
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Isn't that just wonderful and simple!!!  I had to share it!!!!  Thx Mrs. B for posting that on the net for all to see!!
 
I will post my ritual, etc..  once I get it written.  I just really wanted to share that =)